It is "Just the two of us"
For the past three weeks something very strange has entered our lives here at Pear tree cottage.
Rob went to see his local doctor for the results of his last lot of tests.
She is a nice enough lady but does not know us well and is new to the surgery - anyway His results on looking at them looked bad - very bad "life threatening" she said. As she kept on reading the computer screen THEN SHE SAID!
You have cancer you have to give up work and get your "things" in order because you do not have long. "do you need councilling?" all that in the one sentence - If I was there (Rob was on his own) I would have slapped here well and truly across the face IF she had taken her eyes off the computer screen.
Then Rob just got up and left and as he got to the door of her room he turned and said "you are wrong! VERY WRONG! and then walked out".
I was at work and he came past and put two thumbs up all is ok!! there I was thinking it is ok! and there he was thinking is it or am I going to die soon.
Sunday was like any other sleep in and sip coffee in bed on a winters morning chat about this and that and all the while Rob has hidden deep inside him the words of a Doctor that touched his very being and me thinking all is OK! IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN.
Monday morning comes about and I go off to look after some grandchildren and he goes to Work just like any other day.............but come 9am he starts making phone calls first to his specialist, the answers came think and fast "Rob you may or may not have cancer I do not see the results here yet BUT let me tell you you will die first from old age other then thyroid cancer we will chat after you talk to the surgeon. Then he calls the surgeon and he does have the test results. come and see me this FRIDAY Rob.............but let me tell you, you will be ok!
I went with Rob to see him last Friday still thinking that the operation was going to be all that would be needed and as I sit there it dawns on me that something is not right..............it is all to knowing from one man my man and the surgeon they are chatting as if they know more about the last week then I do and then the moment came. Well Rob your Local doctor is wrong you may or may not have cancer but you will not die from it you will be operated on and you will have 5 weeks off work and you will rest and we will fix this problem so do not worry................................OK! what is going on.
Then as we sat in the car in the car park I was told how my dear husband felt and how he did not believe what the local doctor had said and that he just needed time to work through it all by himself and while he should have shared it with me on that very first day "he was not sure what he was sharing so waited to share the truth!
I was so angry and upset even now (forgive me!) I still just want to go and slap the face of that lady doctor for putting my man through the pain and the feelings he could not share until he knew what TRULY was happening.
So here I am sharing this with you all and feeling as if I too can now let go of this horrible week or two and once again know
Rob and I are "Just the two of us"
This is my Sunday! a blessing YES! But it is so hard to understand just what has happened! or what it could have been!
Now we wait till next Friday to get the operation date.